really…
is it really worth it to take a risk on somebody? is it really smart to go after who you want without knowing whether or not they want you? i guess these are useless questions to ask after the fact i tried with someone, not100% try.. but tried pretty damn hard. yet he doesnt fucking get it. he is literally mentally challenged, i text you for a reason.. you text me for a reason. i know the reason and i feel like you do to but are just too afraid to show it. what the fuck am i talking about, this isn’t some dumbass movie things arent going to pop up and change for me
i feel like i am going to spend my whole life wasting on idiots, clear idiots they are obviously idiots.. yet i continue to waste my time. its not eve fully my fault. you were the one that made me like you. i was so over you, beyond that actually.. i was so done with you, there was a point in time when i didnt even want to talk to you not even for a minute. but i would stay up late talking to you, i would even try to end the conversation but not answering or giving half ass answers but then you’d find away to snake me back into the conversation and get me interested, get me interested in you again. which is such bullshit thats what you all do.
like this one asshole who never even talked to me, we went to the same high school for 3 years and he wouldnt talk to me until his last year. i remembered him always weirdly looking at me or even saying hi, which i felt was weird. and then he did it, he messaged me telling me that he wanted me to text him and how he really wanted to talk to me and how he was thinking about me the other day or how he had a dream about me the other day.. yet we never really talked. and so you would text me constantly asking to take me out to a nice place and blahblah blahhhh all that bullshit. at first i completely ignored you and didnt care for anything you said, half the time i wouldnt answer, but then i made such a dumb decision.. i actually told you things about myself, as did you. then i started to really truly like you and when i started feeling this way.. you abrubtly stopped talking to me. you make no fucking sense.. either of you. i wasted 4 years talking to one of you, and a half a year with the other idiot. thats 4 and a half years wasteddddd. so to all you idiots who i have talked to and all the idiots who i will talk to in the future.. all i want to say to all of you is:
fuck you.
